I just want to feel special

Thats all

Its our turn

Probably many of those around my age are alrdy forming family units of your own and staying away from parents and may not really feel it per se. But I was just sharing with Joanne earlier how recently my dad has been down with cough and very often, when I hear him coughing at night, I actually feel like crying. Its like our parents are now at an age where everything is more fragile. It pains me to see them in any sort of discomfort.

I was also sharing w her how there was a point in our growing up days, to 'train' my parents - particularly abt having a curfew, I used to ignore n not pick up their calls. These days, when they call, I pick up immediately and I always feel a fear. Problem is, they also rarely call. I think most parents are like that too... they rarely would want to tell us what's going on, where they feel unwell and would just want to hide it from us. From times when they used to call and care for us, it is our turn to care for them.

Stress Relief

I dont know if anyone sometimes experience this too - maybe not? But sometimes aspects of our lives gets too stressed up or things get so bottled up with no avenues to pour out so u just keep continuing to bottle it. And we end up spilling them out on service folks.

I believe I dont go all unreasonable but I admit I seriously have high expectations.  少一点点都不可以。its like I feel more exasperated than anything. Like wth is wrong with these people?

But while I dont think im unreasonable,  sometimes I think im too hard on them. Like I wonder am I really too demanding or expecting too much? - especially the part abt initiative.

Yet sometimes, crazy as it may sound, it usually is when some big rock is in me and while I am trying to maintain composure n sanity, when service goes haywire, I go haywire too.

Which sometimes when my own customer goes haywire on me, im tempted to ask... " are u alright?  Is there something bothering u that u may want to speak about? "

I don't mean its justified to vent my anger or stress on another person. But sometimes ineffective or inefficient services just provides an avenue to unwind n rant. It probably is a feeling of ' at least this is something that I can voice out'! And u dont need to keep ur woes/anger/disappointment abt this inside.