Emo folks cry over the most ridiculous things

That’s why it’s called emo or maybe hormones

Extreme thoughts

Sometimes when times get hard, thoughts get quite extreme

Scary week ahead

Dad

Present

Present

Christmas

New year 

Scary

生活中的小惊喜

我也想有

Thoughtfulness

Sometimes too much

Sometimes too little

If u can’t help me

Don’t drag me down.

I am helping myself. 

There’s just so much on my plate and if u truly truly understand, I won’t be crying now.

Rocky waters

Troubled heart. Teary eyes. With no time

Let it be

Let it be

信仰

https://youtu.be/epT-lyzom6c

Do you know I?

Do you know I sometimes imagine how certain conversations will go, how certain things will happen. But they don’t always go the way I imagine them to

Managing expectations

If u constantly need to manage your expectations to a point where you are always left to feel unhappy, what is the point?

My voice

If I have already said my piece and nothing changes

I cannot be faulted for losing interest yet again

喝多点水

或把眼睛闭上

就不会哭了

为我好

.

Jupiter calling

No Mars, no Venus 

心又痛了

又哭了

3am

But had to tell u some day how I’m feeling

Effort 10/10

Satisfaction 5/10

That’s pretty much how I feel daily

Difficult days

Difficult days are so much better when you have someone there for you

Better

I just want to feel happier, better...

Bullshit

I prob seem personable to some... 

But at this point in my life I actually feel like communication is tiring.

Like it’s really bullshit.

Either I have problem communicating or I keep feeling like people have problem communicating with me.

Little tones and words prick me badly. I just feel like talking to no one!

快 四十了

可能是大半人生了

追求的是什么？

物质人生？轰轰烈烈的一生？

平平淡淡 安安稳稳的过日子？

想得通的事

想不通的事

重要吗？

生气过的人/事

重要吗？

开开心心的一天

懊恼闷闷的一天

我想要每天笑

可为何总是每天忙碌又郁闷？

搞不懂

Lifeline

If you want to be a lifeline, don’t end up killing the person

巧克力

今天到家只想吃巧克力

不同年代 不同地方

属于不同感觉 不同的人

My stress level

Is at an all time high.

It feels like I need time and attention on 101 things that requires or don’t require my attention.

There’s an increased lack of understanding and patience for me from others and even from myself.

Yet there’s pressure to perform and prove myself.

I get frustrated n snap when my time is demanded coz I don’t have enuff of it.

I also feel pressurised by the uncertainty of times. 

And by the whirlwind of emotions

Everyone says I have a choice. I feel people don’t know I don’t have a choice.

心情小日记

每天每天都好忙

每天嘴巴上都说着 好忙 好忙

却不想停下来

有时自己听了都觉得烦

有时忙得好愉快

有时忙的想哭

有时觉得没有人了解我

有时觉得是我不了解别人

想着 想着 就哭了

明天应该就会好了。应为又要忙了。

Swollen feet

Dad’s foot got very swollen and we admitted him to A&E. I was at one point letting my fears and overthinking get the better of me again.

Dad has fought many tough battles medically and let’s hope he wins this one too. 

I miss my blog. I miss sharing these thoughts.