I just want to feel special

Thats all

Its our turn

Probably many of those around my age are alrdy forming family units of your own and staying away from parents and may not really feel it per se. But I was just sharing with Joanne earlier how recently my dad has been down with cough and very often, when I hear him coughing at night, I actually feel like crying. Its like our parents are now at an age where everything is more fragile. It pains me to see them in any sort of discomfort.

I was also sharing w her how there was a point in our growing up days, to 'train' my parents - particularly abt having a curfew, I used to ignore n not pick up their calls. These days, when they call, I pick up immediately and I always feel a fear. Problem is, they also rarely call. I think most parents are like that too... they rarely would want to tell us what's going on, where they feel unwell and would just want to hide it from us. From times when they used to call and care for us, it is our turn to care for them.

Stress Relief

I dont know if anyone sometimes experience this too - maybe not? But sometimes aspects of our lives gets too stressed up or things get so bottled up with no avenues to pour out so u just keep continuing to bottle it. And we end up spilling them out on service folks.

I believe I dont go all unreasonable but I admit I seriously have high expectations.  少一点点都不可以。its like I feel more exasperated than anything. Like wth is wrong with these people?

But while I dont think im unreasonable,  sometimes I think im too hard on them. Like I wonder am I really too demanding or expecting too much? - especially the part abt initiative.

Yet sometimes, crazy as it may sound, it usually is when some big rock is in me and while I am trying to maintain composure n sanity, when service goes haywire, I go haywire too.

Which sometimes when my own customer goes haywire on me, im tempted to ask... " are u alright?  Is there something bothering u that u may want to speak about? "

I don't mean its justified to vent my anger or stress on another person. But sometimes ineffective or inefficient services just provides an avenue to unwind n rant. It probably is a feeling of ' at least this is something that I can voice out'! And u dont need to keep ur woes/anger/disappointment abt this inside.

久久才见到你对我好

今天看了《天冷就回来》这部舞台剧，感触好深。

其实剧情还好，可是整个剧都采用了梁文福下笔的歌 - 当然早知道他是个好有才华的创作家- 可是今天入戏又用心地听着歌词，真是被他打动。 他可以串歌词的能力真实好棒！ 能够用言语去把一个故事串成一首歌， 更是极为令我惊叹。

其中，有一首歌令我想起了最进让我觉得很自私的一个人。

最後還是會

    作詞：梁文福
    作曲：梁文福
    編曲：王豫民

    最後還是會　最後還是一步一步慢慢向後退
    為何你的擁抱都像在贖罪　哦為何你說愛我都在慚愧

    ＊最後還是會　最後還是一步一步退到無所謂
    　為何問與不問都讓我疲憊　哦為何你把親吻當作乾杯

    ＃最後還是會　最初教人心醉的最後總讓人心碎
    　也許危險對你來說很美　虧欠對我來說不是安慰
    更多更詳盡歌詞 在
    　能不能讓我在愛著你時全身而退

    △最後還是會　最初敲開心扉的最後卻徹夜不歸
    　也許遺憾對你來說很美　內疚對我來說不是安慰
    　能不能讓我在愛著你時從不掉淚　最後還是會




真是好自私。 从来就只是在为自己想。四年都在说着同一个慌。 可怜的是总是选择相信的人。

Predictive Dreams

till now i still have dreams of California Scents

Pleasure Hunting

Don't check back here if you aren't looking for pleasure.
Because you will not find what you think you want to find.
Because i won't let you.
Because even if you found what you hope you will not find, you won't be happy.

Because i honestly don't want you to feel unhappy - because it's not your fault, it never was.

Because i am also pleasure hunting.

So go forth and hunt for your own pleasure.




Check back here for pleasure :)

Juneoesque Nails

A rather new interest,  quite impressed with myself!  I did all these by myself!  As a result,  I sometimes change my nail design every other day or as and when I feel like it!