The not so simple events of an otherwise simple day

Actually a day filled with emotions.

To begin, it was a frustrating morning. I was battling with my new lashes. Yes, i itchy backside went to do fake lashes. Really is itchy backside. I already know i won't enjoy the part when i shower and can't clean the water off my eyes using my palm. I already know i need to be damn gentle. I already know i can only sleep on my back and not so much on my side or face down at any point .. and i know i like to flip around.. but i did it anyway! So yeah, as i showered and faced the issues of opening up my eyes cos the lashes were still wet, i felt damn frustrated with myself. A true case of self destruction (in a minimal kind of way).

Then when i got to the office, i was madly touched by my new big boss. I think he is a god sent! Seriously! I was so damn touched i started tearing. I know, sounds quite kua zhang but he addressed my issues and it was a freaking good day!

And i say its a simple day because its one of those days where i'd head home and not head anywhere after work but i bumped into my neighbour's daughter. She informed us that her mum has passed away. A very nice neighbour and we have been neighbours all my life. They are really nice people.. regularly we would exchange food and all and this old granny has always been the very kind and warm kind of lady. Couldn't help but let the tears flow down again. I hope she is in a better place and that her whole family (whom all of them are really kind and warm folks) get over their sorrows soon.

Lastly, a case of potentially losing something i can't speak of... which is silly. Which i probably wouldn't lose if i contained my thoughts.. but that wouldn't be me would it? So its just silly.

So the above rounds up my otherwise simple day.

Part of the family

yesterday, an abrupt call from the groomer got us all in shock. we were told that niki got into a fit which was never known to us that niki had that or was even vaguely unwell. it was truly a tiring day for us physically and emotionally. she seems fine now just pending for her doc visit.

niki has become such a big part of our family. I really wouldnt want anything bad to happen to her. shes such a sweetheart and really special to the family.

now u will not know...

some website plucked a certain 'mysterious' pic I took and credited me AND LINKED me up (here).

as a result I got a sudden increase in hits over the past couple of days... though not more than 7 yrs ago..

as a result I have to be even even even more discreet with what I write here!

so... u will not get to know about how I feel towards..........  this..... or... that....!

muahaha

Blessed Birthday

this year's birthday is different. I am very happy.

The significance of the actual birth day is very important to me. I'm glad this year is different.

I just want to feel special

Thats all

Its our turn

Probably many of those around my age are alrdy forming family units of your own and staying away from parents and may not really feel it per se. But I was just sharing with Joanne earlier how recently my dad has been down with cough and very often, when I hear him coughing at night, I actually feel like crying. Its like our parents are now at an age where everything is more fragile. It pains me to see them in any sort of discomfort.

I was also sharing w her how there was a point in our growing up days, to 'train' my parents - particularly abt having a curfew, I used to ignore n not pick up their calls. These days, when they call, I pick up immediately and I always feel a fear. Problem is, they also rarely call. I think most parents are like that too... they rarely would want to tell us what's going on, where they feel unwell and would just want to hide it from us. From times when they used to call and care for us, it is our turn to care for them.

Stress Relief

I dont know if anyone sometimes experience this too - maybe not? But sometimes aspects of our lives gets too stressed up or things get so bottled up with no avenues to pour out so u just keep continuing to bottle it. And we end up spilling them out on service folks.

I believe I dont go all unreasonable but I admit I seriously have high expectations.  少一点点都不可以。its like I feel more exasperated than anything. Like wth is wrong with these people?

But while I dont think im unreasonable,  sometimes I think im too hard on them. Like I wonder am I really too demanding or expecting too much? - especially the part abt initiative.

Yet sometimes, crazy as it may sound, it usually is when some big rock is in me and while I am trying to maintain composure n sanity, when service goes haywire, I go haywire too.

Which sometimes when my own customer goes haywire on me, im tempted to ask... " are u alright?  Is there something bothering u that u may want to speak about? "

I don't mean its justified to vent my anger or stress on another person. But sometimes ineffective or inefficient services just provides an avenue to unwind n rant. It probably is a feeling of ' at least this is something that I can voice out'! And u dont need to keep ur woes/anger/disappointment abt this inside.