Wednesday, April 23, 2014

久久才见到你对我好

今天看了《天冷就回来》这部舞台剧,感触好深。

其实剧情还好,可是整个剧都采用了梁文福下笔的歌 - 当然早知道他是个好有才华的创作家- 可是今天入戏又用心地听着歌词,真是被他打动。 他可以串歌词的能力真实好棒! 能够用言语去把一个故事串成一首歌, 更是极为令我惊叹。

其中,有一首歌令我想起了最进让我觉得很自私的一个人。

最後還是會

    作詞:梁文福
    作曲:梁文福
    編曲:王豫民

    最後還是會 最後還是一步一步慢慢向後退
    為何你的擁抱都像在贖罪 哦為何你說愛我都在慚愧

    *最後還是會 最後還是一步一步退到無所謂
     為何問與不問都讓我疲憊 哦為何你把親吻當作乾杯

    #最後還是會 最初教人心醉的最後總讓人心碎
     也許危險對你來說很美 虧欠對我來說不是安慰
    更多更詳盡歌詞 在
     能不能讓我在愛著你時全身而退

    △最後還是會 最初敲開心扉的最後卻徹夜不歸
     也許遺憾對你來說很美 內疚對我來說不是安慰
     能不能讓我在愛著你時從不掉淚 最後還是會





真是好自私。 从来就只是在为自己想。四年都在说着同一个慌。 可怜的是总是选择相信的人。

Sunday, April 20, 2014

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Pleasure Hunting

Don't check back here if you aren't looking for pleasure.
Because you will not find what you think you want to find.
Because i won't let you.
Because even if you found what you hope you will not find, you won't be happy.

Because i honestly don't want you to feel unhappy - because it's not your fault, it never was.

Because i am also pleasure hunting.

So go forth and hunt for your own pleasure.




Check back here for pleasure :)

Juneoesque Nails

A rather new interest,  quite impressed with myself!  I did all these by myself!  As a result,  I sometimes change my nail design every other day or as and when I feel like it!

Friday, April 4, 2014

30 somethings are really something

Amidst my catchup with Joanne earlier, as we shared about what's going on in our lives, what we are going through on the different aspects of our lives, she commented about this article she has once read with the subject somewhere along the line of the subject of this entry.

She briefly shared that the article speaks about how women of their 30s are probably at the peak of their strength because this is the period where they have been through (or are going through) key events of life - marriage, child birth, are at the peak of their careers, aging of their elderly loved ones etc etc. It kind of struck a chord with me.

Marriage - I am beginning to believe this is most likely not going to happen to me this lifetime. Its not that i haven't been in love. I just either keep failing to sustain interest (both ways) or i keep having people who will continueously come to stir me year on year by claiming deep undying love yet wrong timings because they cannot help but have other responsibilities and liabilities to fulfill. But with each year, i grow stronger and i tend to feel more immune towards any injustice towards my romances.

Child birth - I adore children. Many a times i yearn to know my child would look like - someone with my DNA. Would he/she have my eyes or super small eyes? My nose? With my aging parents, i also feel that strong sense of guilt not being able to bring them the joy of having grandparents. But of course, Joanne is right, i know that my parents would not want to sacrifice my happiness for the sake of having grandchildren. On this aspect, i feel a deep sense of regret.

Career - I guess i am doing ok. I enjoy what i do and i think to a certain extent i excel in it. Sometimes i do wonder how life would have turned out otherwise if i had made some other career choices. I do actually sometimes wonder if i should have given the insurance line a try too, especially in my younger days. I probably wouldn't have to work now.

My beloved parents - This is the period where we ought to start fretting and caring for them like they did for us. I really wish them well and seriously, these days what really bring tears to my eyes would be the thought of them growing older. And we just need to be strong, to be there for them just like how they never stopped being there us. And in my case, my parents have always tried to give me the best within their abilities. They are both very dear to me.

Today i wonder as well, not being morbid but is it better to die in an accident or actually from an illness and go through the battling stages?

Life can be really short, i believe in living it to the fullest.


Last but not least, i would like to add that i am truly appreciative of JJ, who is probably the only person who knows about my recent months detailed updates and constantly still checks in on my well being despite his ever busy schedule.


Because they want to be part of your life

Just got home from a catch up with Joanne. We really did a lot of catching up because it has been a couple of months since we managed to catch up.

It is friends who bother to catch up and meet up with u that will know whats going on in your life. It can be events as small as missing a bus or a cab, a infuriating event like your domestic helper has thrown away your ferragamo shoe boxes (TMD.. angry), or something as big as someone really close to you is really sick and you really need that emotional support. 

They want to know and they want to be a part of it.

Thursday, April 3, 2014

Must it be so hot?

The weather is crazy bad these days. Its so hot I feel like its burning. My fever comes on and off. Please let Singapore have better weather.